More Magazine 2013 Beauty Search - On-line Article

The on-line version of the article and accompanying photo shoot pics can be viewed at:

2013 Beauty Search Winners

In the November edition on newsstands now, there's a "behind the scenes" photo montage from the photo shoot. I saw it while standing in line at BJ's on Sunday, while wearing faded yoga pants and no make-up. What a contrast!

This afternoon, I have my quarterly appointment with Dr. Goldberg at the John Theurer Cancer Center. It feels so great not to be starting another round of chemo this week!!!

Creative Writing Workshop Recap

The creative writing workshop, which I led at the John Theurer Cancer Center, went well. One of the "ground rules" for the group setting was that we keep the session confidential. This helps participants to feel safe and secure while sharing their work and emotions. So I won't be sharing my take on the session, but I was very pleased to find out that two of the participants gave the cancer center permission to post on its blog essays they wrote during the evening.

For the first experience, we taped print-outs of road signs on the walls and asked the group to free-write about their cancer journey as it relates to one or more of the signs. Two of the survivors' resulting work can be read at the links below:

Road Signs on My Journey Through Cancer

Signs

For the exercise, I chose to write about a falling rocks caution sign. My 10-minute free-write is below:

The mesh netting holds back the rock, jutting from the face of the cliffs, from falling onto the cars driving through the narrow passageway. In the dim light of the headlights, I can just make out the snow, capping the rock outcroppings of this mountain near Vail, Colorado. I'm afraid these boulders will fall, crushing our car. The sign warns it can happen, despite the metal latticework barriers. The mountainside will crumble, just as our car passes by it. Bad luck. That's all it will be. I should never have gotten leukemia. I should have given birth to a sweet girl named Lily Elizabeth on August 14, 2011. Her skin would have been soft, and pale. Thick dark hair, brushing my cheek as we snuggle. New baby smell. Instead, the chemical smell of the disinfectant soap in the bathroom of my solitary room at the hospital lingers in my nose. How can I trust that the rocks won't fall when they've already fallen once? If they hit our car, I will feel the crushing bone pain all over again, as bad as it had been after the Neupogen shots. Pain like my bones are breaking, like someone has shattered my knee caps. The probability of latent side effects from the treatments can't be that different from the chances of those rocks falling. But I cringe as we pass through the gap bored through the mountain, trying to make out the the mesh netting in the darkness. I'm so busy watching the rock walls that I'm not looking ahead, toward our family vacation. Nor am I listening to what my daughter is trying to tell me from her car seat in the back.

The last two lines of this free-write were a surprise revelation, and serve as a point I need to keep reminding myself of any time I get into one of my downward anxiety spirals. I went into the session viewing it as a way to help other survivors, and left the event surprised by how much I'd gotten out of it as well.

If you're going through a tough time in your life, trying searching on the web for road sign images, and spend ten minutes writing about one or more. You may also be surprised by the result.

Creative Writing Workshop @ the John Theurer Cancer Center, Tuesday October 22

If you're a young adult affected by cancer, we'd love to have you join us for this event:

TIPS FOR WORKSHOP PARTICIPANTS:

More Magazine 2013 Beauty Search Photo Shoot: Behind the Scenes

The photo shoot in NYC was a memorable event, especially because my mom and her twin sister, Lynn were with me! It just happened to work out that the date of the shoot coincided with my aunt's visit! Since they are both beautiful, it felt weird to have them watching the happenings instead of being in the camera's focus.

The prize package included a stay in an NYC hotel, so the day before, we drove into the city and my Mom, Lynn, my husband, and daughter went to The Lion King on Broadway. When I checked into the hotel, an amazing goody was awaiting me.

More Magazine Goody Bag. My mom ganked the wine charms and mascara.
My daughter took the sparkly nail polish.
My husband took the granola bars and caramels.
My favorite item was the Molton Brown shampoo. It smells soooo good.
 

Looking at all the goodies was fun, but made me incredibly nervous for the following day. The coordinator had sent me a call list, which includes a schedule of all of the people involved in the photo shoot, such as: editor, make-up, nails, camera, back camera, video, etc. The lengthy list of names made me realize what a big production it would be-something I'd never considered before while paging through a fashion magazine.

The morning of, I was so nervous I couldn't eat, which  suppose was fine considering it made me feel skinnier (and who doesn't want to feel skinny when getting her picture taken?!?!) The winner for the 50s age group, Vina, and her sister Virgie, met us in the lobby, and the fashion editor, Genevieve Monsma accompanied us in the van to the studio in Brooklyn. (Vina is an amazing woman, and when she later put on a white Valentino dress, I couldn't stop staring at her. Gorgeous!)

More Magazine 2013 Beauty Search: Prize Money Proceeds

When the fashion editor of More Magazine called to inform me that I'd won the 30's age division of the 2013 More Magazine Beauty Search, I was thrilled BECAUSE the prize money enabled me to make the donations I've described below. These three organizations provided my family and me with much needed support during the darkest days following my leukemia diagnosis. I'm so happy to be giving back to them. 

(In terms of the October edition of the magazine, featuring the winners, it hit news stands today. I'll be posting about my experience at the photo shoot, with some pics, sometime this weekend.) 

$1,000 to First Descents

A Bit About the Organization: First Descents offers young adult cancer fighters and survivors (ages 18 to 39) a free week-long outdoor adventure experience designed to enable them to climb, paddle and surf beyond their diagnosis, defy their cancer, reclaim their lives and connect with others doing the same. (Learn more at First Descents)

To Make a Donation or Join our Team: Team Life's a Beach First Descents Fundraising Page

$500 to the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society

A Bit About the Organization: The mission of The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society (LLS) is: Cure leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin's disease and myeloma, and improve the quality of life of patients and their families. LLS is the world's largest voluntary health agency dedicated to blood cancer. LLS funds lifesaving blood cancer research around the world and provides free information and support services.(Learn more at The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society)

To Make a Donation or Join our Team: Team Life's a Beach Light the Night Fundraising Page

$500 to Stupid Cancer

A Bit About the Organization: This non-profit organization empowers young adults affected by cancer through innovative and award-winning programs and services. It is the nation's largest support community for this under-served population and serves as a bullhorn for the young adult cancer movement. (Learn more at Stupid Cancer)

To Make a Donation: Click Here


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Alex and Ani Charm Bangle Designed to Support Light the Night

An announcement from the Leukemia & Lymphoma society: "Alex and Ani has designed a charm bangle to support Light The Night! For every bangle sold in store or online, LLS will receive 20% of sales to support the Light The Night Walk campaign! The Lighthouse Bangle officially launched on Monday, September 9th. The Lighthouse design was chosen because Light The Night and LLS lights the way for patients and provides hope to families battling cancer. It is a reminder to all to be optimistic and keep strong through difficult times."

Purchase here: Alex and Ani Lighthouse Bangle

The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Light the Night Campaign

This year, our family will just be participating in the NYC Light the Night event on Wednesday, September 25. My brother, Jeff, and his family will be joining us from Wisconsin! Unfortunately, we won't be able to do the NJ walk this year, but plan to next year.

For info on how to get involved in our Light the Night fundraising campaign, please visit: Light the Night - Team Life's a Beach










Also, we've added a special little girl to our list of those we walk to honor. Her name is Sally. She was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia (ALL) this past summer, and she turned one years old this week. You can read about her battle at SweetSallySunshine.